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The author. Laura, also known as Lorah. Always in a New York state of mind. Nineteen years old, an introvert and idealist by nature. Impulsive, passionate and hopelessly romantic. A lost student trying to live deliberately.

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My domain, stayorleave.org, is named after a Dave Matthews song from his solo album, "Some Devil." This journal was created in January of 2007. Best viewed in Mozilla Firefox.

Layout was made in Adobe Photoshop 7.0 with a photograph taken by me in December 2005 at a Dave Matthews Band concert. Resources: 1, 2.

Ellie, Yajaira

March 20, 2007

You’re the only one I’ve ever believed in.

I’ve been in an odd mood lately.

Maybe it’s my family, the cold and wintry weather, applying to college for the third time, or going no where fast– I don’t know. I almost regret leaving Richmond. Maybe I didn’t try hard enough, maybe I wasn’t open enough. Perhaps I wanted and expected too much. It could just be that I’m high maintenance. Being here makes me want to rethink every single decision I’ve made since last year. I am suffocating.

I miss Rob already. Although I’ll be going to Bucknell this weekend to visit him, it didn’t make his departure any easier. He makes me want to wake up in the morning and he gives me the motivation to get through the day. I always feel somewhat lost without him around, as if I am somewhat emptier. Rob makes me believe that there are still good, honest, caring people out there– and that love can transcend time and overcome distance. The summer will be wonderful, I know it. We need to take a long vacation together.

Laura, 12:07 am

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I hope things work out for you and reapplying and whatnot. But I’m glad you have someone there to look out for you, make you feel better. Good luck with everything!

Comment by Ellie — March 20, 2007 at 11:04 am

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